Not possible

Well it is Tuesday... time for my first week weigh in... the results... a GAIN of a half pound. Yes you read this right, somehow, I managed to gain back the pound and a half I had lost a few days ago, and add another half pound to that.
I know what must have happened was Mexican food, Monday night too many chips and salsa. Not to mention I had forgotten my slim fast and snacks for the day, so all I had eaten was a lunchable, and was STARVING by the time I got to dinner. I even walked a mile last night trying to get that last minute push....
All I can do is keep trying, I am going to add a daily mile walk in everyday. Especially since I have to lose 4 pounds this week to make up for last week. I have my grapes and celery for snacks today, and my slim fast and lunchable for lunch. I am off to a good start for a new week.... I am not discouraged by my gain, I am motivated...

Could it be?

My first official weigh in isn't until tomorrow, that will be my first full week of this diet thing. But I took a sneak peak on the scale yesterday and was excited to see I was down a pound and a half. Hopefully the ramen noodles I ate late last night didn't ruin that! My goal, 2 pounds a week. Can't wait to see the result tomorrow!!!

Two Days Down

Well, I have two days down, and I am struggling. Tuesday night, the day I started this blog, was a disaster. I did so good all day, had my slim fast for breakfast, a lunchable for lunch, slimfast for snack... all good... then I got home from work and my husband went to bed, and I went to the kitchen. Do I dare say what I did??? Why not, it may make someone feel better about themselves and their dieting disaster... Anyway, I came home and made a whole bag of pasta, topped it with eggplant, mushrooms, and zucchini. (I did saute them in olive oil!!! Never mind the three large scoops of butter I put in the pasta!) I let that sit for quite awhile, knowing I shouldn't eat it. While I was giving my son a bath, I had two.. TWO bagels with cream cheese, still trying to talk myself out of the pasta. After I put my son to bed, I did it. I didn't eat it all, I would have if I could have! I saved some for lunch the next day, but I ate a lot nonetheless.
Ever since my husband was put on the graveyard shift, I have not been able to control myself when he either goes to sleep or goes to work. Self control... it's KEY. And I have to find mine!!!
What I have to do (besides find my self control) is change my story... I was watching The Biggest Loser, (by the way, I knew I weighed as much as some of those contestants, but I always convinced myself I didn't look the way they did... they must be really short people to look that big and weigh the same as me!!! Right???) Anyway, Jillian said to one contestant that she eats because that is the story that plays in her head. Just like with me, I have it programmed in my head that my story is I eat when I am alone... I have to change my story.
My husband was off Wednesday night and is off tonight, so I won't be tempted to pig out with him there. My story has been changed and I will do fine Friday when he goes to work...I'll let you know this weekend if that story is fact of fiction :)
This is hard... sigh...

THE FIRST DAY

Today is the first day of my blogging on my body. My goal is to have lost 25 pounds by the last day of 2009. I have been overweight for the past say, ten years at least. I started gaining in college, like a lot of people do. It's weird how we can look at ourselves in the mirror and not actually see ourselves. I mean, I never thought I was that big, until I started seeing myself in pictures, yet I still ignored the fact that I was gaining. Last year I was pregnant. What a crutch that is to being overweight!!! Even though I did not gain that much during the pregnancy, 4 months after the birth of my son, I am bigger than I have ever been.
Here I am weighing in today at (gulp...) 240 pounds

Yesterday I started the slim-fast diet. Hopefully this will help me control my portions. We try so many different diets, when really the key is obvious, eat healthy, normal portions, and exercise. (WHY IS THAT SOOOO HARD!!!) I actually like the slim fast shakes, and since I am not a breakfast person, this really helps me to have something in the morning. It also helps to have it for lunch, instead of going to fast food or eating some junk out of the vending machine at work. Slim-fast also has a website that is making it easy for me to track my food intake and the amount of calories, fat, sugar, protein, etc. I am putting in my body. If you are interested in doing slim-fast with me, I just started yesterday!!
Here is the web address www.slim-fast.com
It's free and so helpful!