Here I am again....

Well I am back to my exciting 239... I can do this, I can. Even with Thanksgiving two days away, I know I can try to control myself. Holidsy season is such a challange, but I have made this a big enough challange since I started so what's the difference now??? I pig out when I want, so Thanksgiving is no different... I did buy some jeans and get my haircut, and I am feeling good about myself, and I will say, although the weight is not coming off as much as I wanted it to, it really helps to feel good about yourself in other ways, like clothes or a new haircut. It gives you that extra umph you need to say to yourself, I feel this good now, imagine I how I will feel if I have this new outfit, new hair, and am 5 more pounds lighter!!!

Yo-Yo

Up and Down Up and Down, back to where I started. blah.

Doing better

I didn't have time to post yet this week, but I did weigh in on Tuesday and was actually down in weight, back to 139. I have really been focusing on the whole mental part of why I am eating. For example, if I think I need to eat after my husband leaves, I think long and hard about if I am really hungry, why I want to eat, why I choose to eat what I am thinking of eating...etc. It's actually worked! And the other day, I wanted to stop and get some cheese sticks soooooooooooo bad at Sonic or Arby's, I knew I wasn't really hungry, I just wanted the cheese and grease. Anyway, I had to make a conscious effort to switch lanes of the road so I was in the opposite lane as the entrance of the Arby's or Sonic. It worked, I didn't get the cheese sticks...lol Seriously though, it's hard to be conscious of what you are eating, when you are so use to not thinking about any of it and just eating to eat because you like the taste or are bored or whatever. It sounds silly that I have to actually think and justify why I am going to eat, but when you never realized why you ate before it's actually really shocking when you start asking yourself before you open your mouth and insert food...lol

Sigh...

Didn't even bother to get on the scale... I know it isn't a loss, so why depress myself. Seriously, writing about my absolute NO progress every week, how much more aware can I get that what I am doing is not working??? I am obviously ignoring the fact that I need to try harder... there I said it, are you listening to your fingers???